Where to Start!!!!! Well I'm still pondering but for a totally different reason. I did something today, that I have never had to do in my entire life. I had to leave a job that I loved. Then why leave you say! Why indeed! For 5 years I would wake up in the morning and look forward to going to work. For 5 years I wrote in my Christmas cards - I love my job. For 5 years I learned children and people skills from co-workers that most people have to go to school to learn. For 5 years I had an amazing supervisor that pats me on the back and tells me I'm doing a great job everyday. For 5 years I would spend hours at home preparing and working on stuff for the kids. Obviously a great job you're thinking, and what could I have been thinking. Well in my opinion (I sound like a lawyer) I was tired off the politics. I'd like to go on; I'd like to give details, but really who would that benifit. Certainly not me. I'm comfortable putting my head on my pillow tonight. Of course if I were one the outside looking in, I'd want to know - curiosity! Does it change what's happened. No! Does it make me a better person? No. I am in control of my own thoughts. I can't control what other people think. So whether the truth gets out there or varied versions, I have no control. Am I sad? A little. I fell in love with a lot of kids and a lot of parents. My energy is now going towards the future. I know our paths will cross again some day! (hopefully in this lifetime but I'll be on the look-out in other lifetimes as well.)
BODY:Got my 10,000 steps in tonight, and took Maya for a nice visit to see the "Cougar."
MIND: I realized I am capable of every possible emotion today. That means my entire brain in working. Focusing on positive thoughts, and using any tools at my disposal to help me get there.
When I wake tomorrow, I will go through my list of regrets and possible changes for the day. But right there are not alot coming to my mind.
Extra blessings to everyone whose contacted me and shown support. You've helped to end my day in a positive light!!!
Night Stacey
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