Well this is it. The daughter is leaving tomorrow to return to her University Life. Not sure if that's why the winter blues have hit so soon. You would think tht with all the arguing we did over the summer, this would be a relief. But it's not. As I snuck in and cuddled her this morning, I told her I wanted my little baby girl back, she was so much easier. Then I had this time stopping moment. No she wasn't an easy baby. She liked to sleep during the day and play at night. So I tried to move ahead a few years, but she was already such an independant little thing by the time she was two. I kept trying to think back to a time when she needed me more than I needed her. Then I remembered. She was in grade 4. She came home from the school bus and she was in tears. Her heart was so sad and she looked so sad with her teary face. Of course my mother bear instinct kicked in and I wanted to fix everything for her. When I asked her what was wrong, she proceeded to tell me that a boy on the bus (whom she later became good friends with) was teasing her. Now if you know my daughter, she doesn't usually let teasing affect her. But obviously this must have been horrific in nature. Through her tears, and sobbing voice she said " Cam's teasing me, he says I have .......dimples!" I quickly bit both my lips and tried to look concerned. Being the sensitive mother that I am, I basically said "Cam is correct daughter- you do have dimples!" "But there's nothing wrong with dimples and he's probably only teasing you, because that's what boys do when they want you to be their friend." Whewww. So if you ever encounter the daughter, check out her cute dimples, but what ever you do, don't tease her about them.
BODY: I had a hard time getting my butt in gear this morning, but I made it up, did my 30 minutes on thre treadmill. It was until close to bed time that I got the ab workout in, but I got it in. A little bit of gardening, laundry and napping helped to balance the chi in my body workout.
MIND: Just thinking of the daughter and her dimple story brings a smile to my face. I was a little blue first thing in the morning, but by lunch time, I had talked my way out of it and got my s**t together. I remember a time when that wasn't the easiest thing to do. I havelearned many mind tricks and thought processess that help me to get through these low times. And I can still go to bed and have things to be thankful for, then the day has been a good one.
Night, and going to miss you daughter.
Stacey
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