Day 99 - 266 Days to Go

Busy Wednesday (it is wednesday isn't it)
Woke up with a little bit of anxious feeling. It's a feeling like you're lite headed, not really a headache, but this dullness feeling; like if you're not carefull you might be sick. It was a feeling that brings back many a bad memories from about 11 years ago, when I was first sick with chemical imbalance. At the time, I felt I had flu like symptoms. Couldn't eat, lost weight so I was down to 102 (would love that weight again) and of course everyone said to eat so I'd feel better. Now when I feel like that I assume I need to eat to feel better. Well I think I broke that cycle today. I stopped and took notice of how I felt, took my infamous ativan and made myself busy. By 11:00 all those feelings were gone, and I didn't even reach for food to fix them. Yeah!!!
Anyway worked with Sam this afternoon and then went for my 4:00 job interview. Went well It thought, but I'm ok with ever which way it goes. Not sure if that is a good thing or not.

BODY: Did not reach for food when I was feeling ugh. Talked to myself and asked if I was actually hungry or just blah. I think that is a major step for me.

MIND: Talked myself through my anxiousness and came away from my interview with a feeling of "what ever will be, will be." Loiuse Hay "Joy and happiness are at the center of my world."
Is there anywhere else it should be.....
Night
Stacey