I thought today was going to be more of a relaxing day. Can't explain what I was going through today. At first I thought I was just tired (like I usually am)but then I thought a little harder and tried to determine exactly what my body was feeling. I think (and I'm not totally sure) that I might be having my slight case of chemical imbalance. It's funny because it seems like the symptoms are the same as ten years ago, but having said that, they certainly don't seem as extreme. But then maybe they are as extreme, but I am so used to feeling like this that the actually feeling seems almost non exsistant. Now if that isn't confusing, I don't know what is. So now I spend the morning pondering if I am relapsing and that brings me down. But the physical feeling is still the same. That proves one of my points in that the mind can make the same symptoms seem so different. So what if it is the chemical imbalance. I'm obviously dealing with it better than I ever have. But it pisses me off that I can still be affected by it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What to do, what to do!!!!!
What do I do? Well I put on my winter coat; warms pants; snow boots; warm mitts and head out into the back yard for a fire pit. I love fires and the smell. What better way to battle the blues and any chemical imbalance. I must have spent a good hour out by the fire. It was a beautiful fire; and it helped so much.
After the fire went out and I piled snow back on it, I came into the house and got more presents wrapped and stuff ready for supper.
We had Dad, Anne and her family over for supper. Everything turned out good. From the roast to the salmon. And it just seemed the right amount; hardly any left overs. After supper, I brought out the rice krispie project. It's like a gingerbread house only made out of rice krispies. The son and daughter decorated one, and their cousins decorated the other. They turned out quite cute. And then it was time for the Traynors to leave. The girls still have school tomorrow. Now I too am ready for bed.
BODY: Getting outside and getting some fresh air was the perfect solution for this tired body.
MIND: Loiuse Hay " Every problem has a solution." And I found the solution I needed today.
NIGHT
Stacey
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